PPD getting better/wish list of material posessions

[ladyjanelly]

I think my battle with PPD is getting better. I'm crying a lot less these days. I still feel like I have to fight for what I need on a daily basis. Like I plan for what I need/want to do with my day and then struggle from morning til night to get it done. Sometimes it drives me fucking nuts that I can't say "Wow I stink; I'm gonna take a shower now." I feel like I have to ask for permission or help to get such basic things done and it makes me crazy.

But anyway. Crying less is definitely good.
Also, back around Christmas time, people would ask me what I wanted and my best answer was "For you to stop asking what I want." Just. Nothing I could have gotten would have made me happier.

I think it's a good sign that I'm wanting things again.

I want:

A new mattress. Seriously. I'm remembering the bed with the springs poking me that made me dream I was sleeping in a cage with fondness. This sleep number thing sucks so much I'd sleep on the couch if it wasn't so cold out there.

Some way to watch movies at the gym. Like a little I-Pod or Zoone? or whatever it is that lets me watch movies on a 2" screen and the software to get the movies on it.

A new laptop. Alas. The Toshiba has worked hard for me, but the battery life is short and sometimes it won't shut itself off when the lid is closed and it overheats like a mother.

A non-non-stick set of pots and pans. Because Teflon is stressing my husband out, and the heavier metal bottoms make it easier to cook.

Bread-making stuff. Like a roll-out kneading board and fancy grains and cook books. No machines or kits.

An under-counter spice rack. Because I can't give up any more counter space but NEED to see what spices I have. Also so I'll have empty bottles for custom mixes.

Comments

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you are feeling better. Having a baby is an emotional roller coaster even at the smoothest of times. I cried over my baby all the time!!

For skillets, I have three cast iron and three steel, in different sizes. Cast iron is awesome for sauteing/frying, and once it is seasoned it is better than teflon for quick clean ups. Steel is for sauces and things that "deglaze" the pan. I have one cast iron pan that is just for eggs, frenchtoast, pancakes, that sort of thing and it is PERFECTLY nonstick. My other skillets also don't stick, but are a little more roughly treated. In steel I have a small skillet, saucier, and a highedged thing. Once you get rid of all teflon you will be so glad!

i wonder if you have a dutch oven yet? I have a 7 quart le creuset dutch oven -- it was expensive but SO WORTH IT.

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

I think I use the crock pot where I would use the dutch oven. Not completely sure about that though.

I suck at keeping cast iron nice. Or at least I did 15 years ago. Maybe I should give it another try...

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

In my Dutch oven i make chili or spaghetti sauce -- things you would begin by browning ground beef; or when I make gumbo (the roux); or other large soups. My husband does all the crock pot cookery! :) A classic dutch oven recipe is coq au vin -- it is nice for when you are first searing meat and then adding other things.
http://simplyrecipes.com/recipes/coq_au_vin/


Most recently though we had leftover soup in the dutch oven: leftover beef stew (from the crock pot); chicken broth from the freezer; leftover sausage hash -- plus some celery, a potato, two carrots, and a can of chick peas. IT WAS SO GOOD. :)

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

It looks cool but I dunno if any convenience is worth that price. :)

I've been making something at the end of each week to use up all the leftover bits and bobs of whatever produce we used. That's almost the fun part.