PPD getting better/wish list of material posessions

[ladyjanelly]

I think my battle with PPD is getting better. I'm crying a lot less these days. I still feel like I have to fight for what I need on a daily basis. Like I plan for what I need/want to do with my day and then struggle from morning til night to get it done. Sometimes it drives me fucking nuts that I can't say "Wow I stink; I'm gonna take a shower now." I feel like I have to ask for permission or help to get such basic things done and it makes me crazy.

But anyway. Crying less is definitely good.
Also, back around Christmas time, people would ask me what I wanted and my best answer was "For you to stop asking what I want." Just. Nothing I could have gotten would have made me happier.

I think it's a good sign that I'm wanting things again.

I want:

A new mattress. Seriously. I'm remembering the bed with the springs poking me that made me dream I was sleeping in a cage with fondness. This sleep number thing sucks so much I'd sleep on the couch if it wasn't so cold out there.

Some way to watch movies at the gym. Like a little I-Pod or Zoone? or whatever it is that lets me watch movies on a 2" screen and the software to get the movies on it.

A new laptop. Alas. The Toshiba has worked hard for me, but the battery life is short and sometimes it won't shut itself off when the lid is closed and it overheats like a mother.

A non-non-stick set of pots and pans. Because Teflon is stressing my husband out, and the heavier metal bottoms make it easier to cook.

Bread-making stuff. Like a roll-out kneading board and fancy grains and cook books. No machines or kits.

An under-counter spice rack. Because I can't give up any more counter space but NEED to see what spices I have. Also so I'll have empty bottles for custom mixes.

Comments

[embroiderama]

I'm glad things are getting better. *hugs*

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) I spend less time sad. It's a good thing.

[tobemeagain.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
If it helps my mother sent your package yesterday. Also just bread cookbooks? or would any others be of interest. I'm pretty sure we have some of each, but I'd have to ask what she will part with. (Both mother and gram collected cookbooks).

As to a mattress, have you tried pricing at The Dump? They are open really weird hours, but they have seriously good prices.

Depending on your budget, might I suggest an Asus for a new laptop. My Toshiba died an honorable death after 5yrs (it also would overheat, wouldn't run more then 10min). But I was able to get an Asus over at Best Buy. They tend toward high memory amounts, good graphics cards and processors and most importantly good reviews.

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

WooHoo! That's awesome.

I haven't tried The Dump yet. Hubby is wanting like a european mattress or something. I dunno. I'm ready to sleep on the damn floor.

Hubby got an Asus for christmas, and I think that's what I'd want. It's got a super-long battery life, runs cold and they've got the best record for low instances of parts failure out there. And they're cheap (ish).

I've got a lot of other cookbooks but nothing bread yet. I don't want to take something she wants to keep, but if you're getting rid of them or something I'd be happy to give one or two a good home. :)

[tobemeagain.livejournal.com]

That running cold holds true even when you balance it on your lap for several hours netflixing *ahem* As to price, check out the BB outlet site online that is where I found mine for $300 less then everywhere else. And yeah it took me about 2days to get used to the keyboard layout (it's got a full number pad which I love).

On the cookbooks, I know Mom has been wanting to clear some out, I'll see if any are bread and get back to you on that ;P

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

I'll definitely check that out.

Anything I can send you/lend you or anything? Postage? Books get heavy to send, I know.

[faunna.livejournal.com]

I'd love my select comfort if I didn't need to re-air it to maximum fullness daily... what's the problem with yours?

Kudos deciding to go Teflon free. I recommend Revere Ware. Mom has pots and pans that are in regular service after at least 40 years and I'm really enjoying my set. Before I learned to cook I burned things I didn't think would come off but SOS pads made them shine like new every time.

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

My side has to be re-aired daily. there's a hump in between Sam and I. When he sits down on his side he bounces the baby and I on ours. The foam is all squished on the side and so there's no edge on part of the side.

I'm slowly picking up a set of pans. Like one or two a month. I've got a big pot and a HUGE pot and now a teeny pot. I think I'll look for a skillet next.

[faunna.livejournal.com]

Odd, we've had ours for many years and aside from a bit of a dip between the two sides we don't have motion or foam issues like that. This is my second (I had a small one when I was single) and I've disassembled and reassembled them a number of times in the last ten years... I could look at it and maybe fix? I'd have to say the biggest issue for us, air holding aside, is I keep my side super firm and he likes his super soft so if we try to come together in the middle hilarity and/or frustration can easily ensue.

FYI, if you end up with a Revere Ware pot/skillet at a garage sale or resale shop you can get a matching lid at a Corning outlet :)

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

The foam on the side has crushed in. I need to call and get a replacement.

I might try putting the old air chamber thing back in so there's not a foam hump between us. If you wanna help, I'd love your assistance. Even if you just want to come visit the baby. :)

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you are feeling better. Having a baby is an emotional roller coaster even at the smoothest of times. I cried over my baby all the time!!

For skillets, I have three cast iron and three steel, in different sizes. Cast iron is awesome for sauteing/frying, and once it is seasoned it is better than teflon for quick clean ups. Steel is for sauces and things that "deglaze" the pan. I have one cast iron pan that is just for eggs, frenchtoast, pancakes, that sort of thing and it is PERFECTLY nonstick. My other skillets also don't stick, but are a little more roughly treated. In steel I have a small skillet, saucier, and a highedged thing. Once you get rid of all teflon you will be so glad!

i wonder if you have a dutch oven yet? I have a 7 quart le creuset dutch oven -- it was expensive but SO WORTH IT.

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

I think I use the crock pot where I would use the dutch oven. Not completely sure about that though.

I suck at keeping cast iron nice. Or at least I did 15 years ago. Maybe I should give it another try...

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

In my Dutch oven i make chili or spaghetti sauce -- things you would begin by browning ground beef; or when I make gumbo (the roux); or other large soups. My husband does all the crock pot cookery! :) A classic dutch oven recipe is coq au vin -- it is nice for when you are first searing meat and then adding other things.
http://simplyrecipes.com/recipes/coq_au_vin/


Most recently though we had leftover soup in the dutch oven: leftover beef stew (from the crock pot); chicken broth from the freezer; leftover sausage hash -- plus some celery, a potato, two carrots, and a can of chick peas. IT WAS SO GOOD. :)

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

It looks cool but I dunno if any convenience is worth that price. :)

I've been making something at the end of each week to use up all the leftover bits and bobs of whatever produce we used. That's almost the fun part.

[1orelei.livejournal.com]

Yay for feeling better. &heartts;

[kodi]

As for bread cook books, I really like The Great Book of Bread. It's kind of old, so it looks like the only way to get it is through a reseller, but the recipes are really well laid out.

[ladyjanelly.livejournal.com]

I think my mom had that one. We lived so far from civilization at one point that "groceries" included 20 lbs of flour or so.