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ladyjanelly ([personal profile] ladyjanelly) wrote2007-06-02 11:10 pm

FIC: Re-cast (scar!verse), ch 9/? rated nc-17 Jensen/Jared

Title: Re-cast (scar!verse) ch 9/?
Author: Ladyjanelly
Rating: NC-17
Characters: Jensen/Jared,
Summary: Jensen stopped acting in 2000. He still runs into Jared.
Warning: Men sexing men, AU.
Disclaimer: Never happened, not my boys.
Betaed by the lovely [profile] evolardnek  Thanks so much for the super-speedy beta.
Feedback: Is always appreciated-- praise, crit, all of it. 

AN: It's short, and it's close to a PWP for the 'verse, but it didn't fit last chapter and it doesn't work with the next, and if I got too far past it, it'd never happen.  I think I'm apologizing for porn.  I'll stop now.




CHAPTER 9

The network shindig grates on Jared’s nerves like never before. He’s always enjoyed them in the past--the people, the excitement, the music and booze. This time, though, the whole hand-shaking, smile-flashing thing is sucking big-time.

It’s not that he’s doing it without a date. Sandy used to make it up to Vancouver rarely enough that he’s used to that spot at his side being empty. No, what he misses is Jensen, his quiet humor and steady presence.

He cuts out as early as he can, but early is a relative term. 3 a.m. isn’t a bad time to get home, though. He’s sure Jen will already be back from that dinner thing he went to with friends. Jared doesn’t want it to look like Jensen's not supposed to have a life of his own, and as much as he likes them being together, he doesn’t want to monopolize Jensen's weekends.

The jeep is out front and most of the lights are off in the apartment. The dogs meet him at the door, all tail-waggy and happy to see him. He slides out of his jacket and tie, toes off his dress-shoes and makes fists with his toes on the carpet. He grabs a water bottle out of the fridge and meanders on down the hall to the bedroom.

Jensen's stretched out in bed, their bed, illuminated by the soft glow of the closet light. The sheets are new, a deep garnet red, pooled around his waist. The smooth point of one hip shows above the edge of the fabric. Jared’s never seen anything as beautiful as his lover, framed like a pictures on the dark, rich, cotton.

Either Jensen feels himself being watched or the jingling of the dogs’ collars wakes him, but he rolls over towards the door and smiles his not-awake-yet smile in the dim light.

"Go back to sleep," Jared says as he works the cuff-links of his crisp white shirt free.

"Missed you." Jensen yawns and stretches. All six feet plus of him tenses and flexes before he goes lax again with a contented groan. He watches Jared, green eyes following his movement.

"Missed you too." Jared can’t help but appreciate the way the sheet slid down, revealing the graceful trail of ginger-tinged hair that leads from Jensen's navel to the top edge of his pubes.

Jared thinks maybe he should have more self-control than this. The next time an interviewer asks if he’s ever had any encounters with the supernatural, he’s going to say yeah, his boyfriend is an incubus.

He finishes getting naked and slides into bed, on top of the sheets. Jen moans again as Jared kisses his sternum, caresses him through the body-warmed cloth. There’s something illicit, naughty, about touching him through the barrier. He scooches down lower on the bed, and presses his lips against the ridge of Jensen's dick. He sighs out, forcing his heated breath through the weave.

Jensen squirms in the bed, and the sound he makes is like the sexiest thing ever.

"Just let me," Jared begs, "I want to take care of you, Jen, just lay back and let me."

Jensen relaxes against the mattress, and he’s so soft and pliant, half-asleep still. Jared feels trusted, loved, as he sneaks the sheet down. He spreads Jensen's thighs and settles in between them. Jensen smells good, masculine and warm.

Jared takes his time, nuzzling and kissing and licking at his lover’s dick. He likes watching it twitch, knows he must be driving Jensen crazy.

He thinks about the last time their positions were reversed, and wonders if Jensen had been doing unto Jared as he would have Jared do unto him, with that finger thing. Never know until you try,

Jensen takes an unsteady breath, but he doesn’t pull away. His legs spread wider and his hips tip up to give Jared better access. Maybe he’s been exaggerating how asleep he is, but Jared has no complaints.

Jared holds himself still for a moment, just figuring out how he feels. He’s content to just press his fingers there--truth to tell, the idea of pushing inside is a little much. Still, he can feel the way the muscle clenches and relaxes as he flicks his tongue over the head of Jensen's dick, can feel how hot his body is there.

It’s like touching the secret core of the man, and yeah, he gets it now, why Jen wanted to touch him there.

He finishes Jensen off like that, stroking him with one hand, massaging with the two fingers of the other. It’s beautiful and sexy and Jared feels like he’s been let in on one of the secrets of the universe.

He brings Jensen down easy, using little licks and nuzzles to soothe the last of the aftershocks. When Jensen's done, he moves to finish himself off, crawling up between Jen's knees and putting his hand to his own aching cock, pulling it with quick, efficient strokes until he spills over Jensen's stomach. He collapses beside Jensen, breathing hard and spent, his mind still reeling from what he did, what it felt like.

Jensen's fingers stroke through his hair and Jared slowly returns to himself.

"You okay?" Jensen asks, and Jared nods.

"Yeah." He feels himself grin. "I’m good."

It’s totally gross and totally a boy thing to do, but Jared brings his fingers up and takes a cautious sniff. They don’t smell like shit, Jared thinks. He sniffs again. They smell like ass, he decides, which is different, heavy and rich and not exactly bad. Not something he’d wear as cologne, but not disgusting.

Jensen snickers and Jared gives him a glare.

"You’re such a faker," Jared pouts, and Jensen pushes at him. Jensen never sleeps completely naked, and he doesn’t like the draft from the heater on his skin, and yeah, this was a set-up from the minute Jared stepped in the front door. He can imagine Jensen listening for his truck and arranging the sheet just so, and lying back, pretending to sleep

"It seemed like what you needed at the time," Jensen says, not a bit repentant. "Go clean up and bring me a washcloth."

Jensen is sort of a mess, and it is sort of Jared’s fault. Jared washes the funk off his fingers in the sink and gets a warm washcloth. He just gets a raised eyebrow when he offers it over; Jensen doesn’t raise a hand to take it. He’s perplexed for a moment and then he gets it. His hands are gentle as he wipes their combined mess off of Jensen's soft skin, and this is almost as much a part of their connection as Jensen's dick in his mouth had been.

When the clean-up is done, he passes Jensen the loose pajama pants he prefers and pulls on his own boxers. He slides into bed and pulls those autumn-red sheets up over them both.

He feels like he should say something, or ask something, but he can’t think of what, exactly. The day was crazy-long and Jared is full-on lethargic.

Jensen's body stretched out against his is good, his arm across Jared’s chest is just the right weight, comforting and solid.

For the first time in his life, somewhere besides his parents’ house feels like home.

 

[identity profile] anakin415.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
so happy to see this updated!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad you enjoyed it!
ext_2551: gray flowers on a wallpaper (j2 puppy love)

[identity profile] walkawayslowly.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww, I love that last line. Love it to little itty bitty pieces. I love the feel of this whole chapter, that they've reached a place they're comfortable with each other, really comfortable and not just interested, you know? Lovely. :D

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. It really felt like a turning point, which is funny in such a PWPish chapter, but somehow it worked.

Glad you enjoyed it.

[identity profile] tabularassa.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
That was really lovely and sweet. Now I have to go read the previous 8 chapters. Being home sick from work sure has it's advantages. This part totally made me laugh and I'mglad someone addressed it in a fic, because it's totally real: "It’s totally gross and totally a boy thing to do, but Jared brings his fingers up and takes a cautious sniff. They don’t smell like shit, Jared thinks. He sniffs again. They smell like ass, he decides, which is different, heavy and rich and not exactly bad. Not something he’d wear as cologne, but not disgusting." That was awesome.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Now I have to go read the previous 8 chapters

Heh. Jared's such a boy. They were being so damn domestic, I thought I'd let him be a guy about it. Logistics are funny sometimes.

I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter. Let me know what you think on the rest. I don't think there was even a mention of the scar in this one.

[identity profile] tabularassa.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
I will most definitely let you know what I think of the rest. *goes off to read and find out about said scar*

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-09 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
Holy crap.

Geez, that was above and beyond the call of duty.

Sorry I didn't get back to you sooner. Household drama.

It was wonderful to come back and see the huge stack 'o reviews. I really appreciate it. Glad the rest of the fic lived up to chapter 9.

[identity profile] tabularassa.livejournal.com 2007-06-09 12:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Haha. Well, it turned out to be an awesome story, so I'm glad I went above and beyond. I wanna go above and beyond with Jensen too, so yeah. *he distracts me*

Did you get to go watch 'A Few Good Men'?

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-09 12:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Alas, I did not. I feel like such a bad fan, because we're /right here/, but I don't want to go alone, and for my husband and I to go together and sit in the not-bad seats, it'd be 120. I'm a full-time student right now, and that's a lot of cash to blow on one thing at this point in our financial lives.

so I'm close enough to hear the squee. Sigh.

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[identity profile] serenity151979.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmmm.... *wibble* If I came home to find Jensen waiting for me like that, then I'd totally be all over him. It's a small thing, but I adored the description of the sheet around his waist.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh. That was Jensen's evil evil plan.

It's something of a step for Jensen, to show off himself to Jared.

Glad you enjoyed it, thanks for commenting.

[identity profile] lekkerstuk.livejournal.com 2007-06-05 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
PWP indeed! Such beautiful, descriptive love-making. Even with the finger-sniffing! Nothing in this verse ever feels forced. It just has the slow cadence of a normal relationship, with both men acting on instinct.

I also enjoyed seeing this sexy, scheming side of Jensen. He seems to be letting some of his guards down, both sexually and emotionally.

As one of my closest and most flaming friends would say... "Loves it!!!"

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-09 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
Yay! Glad you enjoyed it.

Jensen really is starting to open up and take risks, and just let Jared see him.

[identity profile] lapdogdesign.livejournal.com 2007-06-08 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
I just read the entire scar!verse (so far) in one sitting, and I just love it. The connection between Jen and Jay is so sweet and hot and sexy and real. Very well done. I loved Jen's (and Jay's momma's) concern about Jared's career. And Jared's reaction to the assplay was awesome. Someone so new to that would have that exact reaction, right down to this, which made me giggle:
Jared brings his fingers up and takes a cautious sniff. They don’t smell like shit, Jared thinks. He sniffs again. They smell like ass, he decides
Hee. Such a boy thing to do.

This is a great AU for the boys we all love so much. Can't wait to read more.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-09 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
Aww, I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

Heh. That was a funny scene to write. The Jared of this 'verse really surprised me with how inexperianced he is, how new everything is to him.

I'm about 12 (handwritten, steno-sized) pages through the next chapter. It'll probably clock in at about 18-20 or so, but it's in the works.

[identity profile] ellore.livejournal.com 2007-06-12 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
Just found this 'verse and fell in love with it - beautiful development of the boys' relationship. I love how Jared is slowly becoming comfortable with gay sex instead of jumping right in - just lovely. And I am highly intrigued about Jensen's backstory. Can't wait to see more.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-12 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
Glad you're enjoying it.

I think that the leap for a man from being sexually attracted to other men, to being interested in/comfortable with penetrative sex is a fascinating mental transition.

I hadn't expected that inexperiance when I started writing this Jared, but I'm enjoying the surprise.

Hmm. Tiny bit more of Jensen's story next chapter.

thanks so much for commenting and friending. I usually put things on my lj a few days before I pimp them out, so you see it sooner that way.

-J.

I love this story

[identity profile] robin2003hyder.livejournal.com 2007-06-13 01:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I have read this story since the beginning though this is the first time I have commented.

I absolutely adore it. It's so gentle, sweet and yet very real. Thank you for writing it.

I really do want to know what the back story with Jensen is.

I know lots of people ask but do update soon, I'm really curious.

Robin

Re: I love this story

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-16 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
Glad you're enjoying it. I worry sometimes, about the pace being so slow and easy. I'm always happy to hear it works for people.

The backstory should start filtering in really soon now. :)

I've got ch 10 almost done, I just need to cut about 1000 words and rewrite that section, and I admit I am dreading that. I hate unwriting stuff, but it's gotta be done.

[identity profile] elmathelas.livejournal.com 2007-06-15 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I love this entire story so much. I hope you'll forgive me for just commenting on this part-- I was so entranced by the story that I just didn't want to stop reading.

I am so pleased by your description of Jared and the whole buttsex thing. Even to men who have been having sex with men for a long time it's rarely the casual easy thing that so much fic makes it out to be. I love that they're together, a couple in every sense of the word, and they're not perceiving themselves to not be having "actual" sex just because there's no penetration (yet?).

I dare to hope for more.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-06-16 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Commenting on just this part is fine. I do appreciate it.

I'm glad the "whole buttsex thing" is working for you. I kind of wanted to take it a slightly different direction than a lot of fic does. It's a nice source of dramatic tension without the heavy angst. For Jared, it's weird, and kinda gross and he's totally not sure about it, but there's no plot need for there to be any trauma associated with it.

I'm glad you enjoyed it. I'll probably have ch 10 up at the beginning or middle of next week.

[identity profile] stungunbilly.livejournal.com 2007-07-22 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
This is a very engrossing story. I love how you've managed to give them a gentle progression while underlaying the main story with dramatic elements and the tense anticipation of Jensen's potentially dark revelations. It really works.
And the boys are both intensely endearing. I can just imagine how poor Jensen had to go jerk off after massaging Jared, drooling inside and all the while acting totally professional on the surface. His patience and obvious emotional depth make it easy to see why Jared's so smitten. And this Jared is so sweet and brave and playful; I adore this version of him. No wonder Jensen is willing to try so hard.
I especially liked the way you make Jared sexually repelled/attracted by anal play; it really grounds the sex and makes it more believable. The whole smell thing is exactly what a guy would do, and that makes it better.

[identity profile] ladyjanelly.livejournal.com 2007-07-22 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm really pleased at how the little threads of sub-plot keep showing up, asking to be woven into this. I really didn't have much of a plan when I started.

Thank you for the wonderful words about both boys. I'm always afraid the not-changed one is gonna seem flat or boring, and it's wonderful to hear that Jared's just as interesting as Jensen.

Heh. Jared's butt-shyness was a huge surprise to me too. I had totally not planned that. I was just playing with the idea of their first time in my head, and he kept freaking out. :)

Glad you're enjoying it. Sorry the chapters are coming so slow.

[identity profile] elzybub.livejournal.com 2007-08-03 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
I am absolutely in love with this story. Can't wait for the next chapter.

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