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ladyjanelly Feeling a tad overwhelmed lately.
Sami's going through a very trying time for a 3 year old. Contrary about EVERYTHING, yelling and angry. Not napping at all, and being sleep-deprived toddler. She started pre-school, which I have finally gotten the hang of (right shoes, right diapers, hair-clip, check in, check out).
I've felt a lot of pressure to use those 12 hrs a week in a productive way. Things I've been trying to do:
I volunteered to co-beta a fic and totally failed at it and I feel terrible about it. I just have no ability to concentrate.
My husband is wanting me to post my fic as original fic on Amazon, but I don't feel right just putting up the fic I've got with different names. I want to make structural edits and make the writing better before I ask for money for it, but getting crit is no fun. Making edits are no fun. It's boring and lonely and feels reward-less. Also, I really don't want to stop working on new fic to go back and mess with old fic. I don't think I"ll be able to work on 2 sets of characters in different fandoms at the same time.
I seriously need a break, but I feel like I lost half the year to the blahs and also, putting Sami in a good pre-school is going to tax our finances, so the getting-money stuff HAS to be done. I've got tons of material to make into sellable product, I've got AutoCAD skill I can get out there and market, I've got writing sitting around that could be shined up and sold.
Sami's going through a very trying time for a 3 year old. Contrary about EVERYTHING, yelling and angry. Not napping at all, and being sleep-deprived toddler. She started pre-school, which I have finally gotten the hang of (right shoes, right diapers, hair-clip, check in, check out).
I've felt a lot of pressure to use those 12 hrs a week in a productive way. Things I've been trying to do:
- keep house cleaner
- revitalize my etsy store
- shop estate sales for vintage to sell
- sew sweater-coats because winter-buying-season starts in October
- start painting denim and other jackets (mainly because the cyst in my left wrist only lets me sew so long in a day)
- setting up a photography area with professional lighting
- Tomorrow I'm starting networking meetings for AutoCAD because that's guaranteed money if I find contract work
- writing (not on Sami-school time). Still maintaining about 3000 words/week but it doesn't feel like it's flowing like it was.
- try to spend some quality time with husband (hard to do with a toddler who sleeps less than either of us)
I volunteered to co-beta a fic and totally failed at it and I feel terrible about it. I just have no ability to concentrate.
My husband is wanting me to post my fic as original fic on Amazon, but I don't feel right just putting up the fic I've got with different names. I want to make structural edits and make the writing better before I ask for money for it, but getting crit is no fun. Making edits are no fun. It's boring and lonely and feels reward-less. Also, I really don't want to stop working on new fic to go back and mess with old fic. I don't think I"ll be able to work on 2 sets of characters in different fandoms at the same time.
I seriously need a break, but I feel like I lost half the year to the blahs and also, putting Sami in a good pre-school is going to tax our finances, so the getting-money stuff HAS to be done. I've got tons of material to make into sellable product, I've got AutoCAD skill I can get out there and market, I've got writing sitting around that could be shined up and sold.
