fic rec: Wonderful Inventions

Okay, so Im barely reading J2 fic at all anymore, but I saw this come up on the big-bang group, and I thought "Hmm. This may well be relevant to my interests." and man was it ever. Damaged!Jensen, struggling!Jared, love and family. No quick fixes, but not horrible-heavy grittiness either. Just wonderful.

It's by  tcs1121 , whom I have not read before, but I'll definitely be looking back through her fics. 

Summary: The quirky, absent-minded, yet brilliant Dr. Jensen Ackles created big, successful, life-saving inventions. However, while working on his newest project, he was struck down by a devastating illness, leaving Dr. Ackles still quirky, absent-minded and brilliant, but...happier.

Misha, Jensen's long-time professional and personal assistant, now helps Jensen manage his delusions, seizures, and hallucinations, which Jensen takes in stride. But when Dr. Ackles picked up Tristan one morning by the Boardwalk, professing an unexplained yet all-encompassing love for the street walker, Jensen became happiest of all. He loves his life, his life, his life. 

Until the court tries to take it all away.

Link to Fic 

Sigh.

 Feeling a tad overwhelmed lately.

Sami's going through a very trying time for a 3 year old. Contrary about EVERYTHING, yelling and angry. Not napping at all, and being sleep-deprived toddler. She started pre-school, which I have finally gotten the hang of (right shoes, right diapers, hair-clip, check in, check out).  

I've felt a lot of pressure to use those 12 hrs a week in a productive way. Things I've been trying to do:

• keep house cleaner
• revitalize my etsy store
• shop estate sales for vintage to sell
• sew sweater-coats  because winter-buying-season starts in October
• start painting denim and other jackets (mainly because the cyst in my left wrist only lets me sew so long in a day)
• setting up a photography area with professional lighting
• Tomorrow I'm starting networking meetings for AutoCAD because that's guaranteed money if I find contract work
• writing (not on Sami-school time). Still maintaining about 3000 words/week but it doesn't feel like it's flowing like it was.
• try to spend some quality time with husband (hard to do with a toddler who sleeps less than either of us)

I volunteered to co-beta a fic and totally failed at it and I feel terrible about it. I just have no ability to concentrate.

My husband is wanting me to post my fic as original fic on Amazon, but I don't feel right just putting up the fic I've got with different names. I want to make structural edits and make the writing better before I ask for money for it, but getting crit is no fun. Making edits are no fun. It's boring and lonely and feels reward-less. Also,  I really don't want to stop working on new fic to go back and mess with old fic. I don't think I"ll be able to work on 2 sets of characters in different fandoms at the same time.

I seriously need a break, but I feel like I lost half the year to the blahs and also, putting Sami in a good pre-school is going to tax our finances, so the getting-money stuff HAS to be done. I've got tons of material to make into sellable product, I've got AutoCAD skill I can get out there and market, I've got writing sitting around that could be shined up and sold.